Tuesday, July 3, 2007

notes from an amateur hypochondriac

I don't get sick much. Consequently, when I have a little thing (like a headache) I get concerned about myself within five minutes. Used to be that when my temples began to throb just the slightest bit, I would start to think, 'What does an aneurism feel like?'

This morning I'm wondering about the definition of nervous exhaustion. Does that mean being so nervous you can't sleep? If so, then, okay, check--I got that. But don't you also have to be exhausted, like super super tired? Because I'm feeling pretty bleary now, but just thirty hours ago, friends were telling me, 'Hey, you look good, you look...happy.' So that doesn't seem to fit the diagnosis.

Don't you actually have to stay up all night for three or four nights before you're truly exhausted, worn out, beat, shagged and schnockered? Because I might just be minorly-bushed, or faux-exhausted....all I know is, I better try to stay awake now, or I'm gonna go down for hours.

And I can't do that.