Friday, April 18, 2008
What if Adinah throws another temper tantrum tonight, and I lose my temper again, and I hurt her with my words, or even my hands? What if, no matter how hard I try, all my patience boils away, and I see red, all because she doesn't want to brush her teeth or put away her Legos? What if I become Bad Father of the Week? And what if, then, it rains tapioca pudding?
Or, what if Adinah throws another hissy-fit tonight, and I ignore it, and she thinks, 'I've won,' and then she starts to think she is the Boss of me? Will we ever have peace in our house again? What if Anette and I become mere shuffling trolls, the pale, moon-tanned and warty slaves of our masters, our children? What if, Spock? What... If ?
What if neither of us does anything tonight, but Adinah stops liking me anyway? What if she doesn't love me forever, like the daughters do their papas in all the best books? What if she grows up and becomes a Republican? What if she discovers Black Sabbath, but only likes all the records they made after Ozzie left? Jeezus Fucking Christ, that would be a nightmare!